Praying really hard

I just heard someone say that they were praying really hard for something. What exactly does that mean? What is the difference between praying for something and praying really hard? What is the difference between seeking the Lord's will and really seeking it? Well, in asking myself this, I realized a difference: I've always claimed that I am in a constant state of prayer as the Bible instructs us to be, because I am constantly surrendered to and in tune with what God would have me do. I feel like I am always seeking Him in all things even if I'm not bowing down and closing my eyes and physically speaking a prayer, you know? And although those things are good, they are sometimes a substitute for "really" praying hard or "really" seeking Him in my life, which is not good. It's as if I convince myself that I am being who God wants me to be or doing what He wants me to do because I haven't heard Him tell me to be or do anything different. But, i fail to physically bow down and close my eyes and ask Him on a regular basis. People probably get sick of hearing me whine about my current situation, but it is somewhat all-consuming at this point, and so I am going to relate it to my current thought process, whether you like it or not! All along, I have felt like I was seeking the Lord and doing what He would have me do. I've thought - well, I know, without a doubt, that He moved Lance and I to Conroe, so I know that He is going to take care of the things that we left there. I've thought that there is nothing else that I can conceivably do (except for go and burn down the house and be done with it, which has definitely crossed my mind)! And while it is true that God will take care of what we left behind because we were being obedient to Him, that doesn't mean that I might not need to play a part in that. And just because I can't, in my limited mind, think of anything else that I could be doing at this point (except for pay someone to clean my house, pay the plumber to fix the leak, and other things that keep costing me money), that doesn't meant that God can't reveal something to me that needs to be done! Am I praying really hard for Him to reveal these things to me? Am I really seeking Him? The answer, up to this point, has been NO! I have been lazy -- maybe He has to bring me to this point of desparation to really communicate with Him! How sad is that?! So, here begins the praying really hard and really seeking Him for me.............